Yankee;

So you know when you go on a blind date they usually don’t work out. And between a country girl and a yankee nonetheless. You would be surprised to find they actually mesh really well together. I’m happy I met him. He always says the sweetest things when I least expect. He sends me cute little messages on facebook and always keeps his promise on calling back. Doesn’t wanna spend all day partying wants to take me to art museums and such. Kisses my belly and holds me from the behind. Giving light kisses on the forehead. I honestly feel like a princess.

B or G?

Well I find out if I’m buying pink(yellow/purple) or blue(Green/Red) May 30th.

My doctor said my baby looks as healthy as can be so I’m a proud mommy.

Well that’s pretty much it.

Peace love and happiness

x3

So I got my first ultrasound the other day.

I was happy I actually started crying.

The nurse was really nice though she told me alot of first time moms do it.

They said everything looks healthy and that my baby should be here about October 16th

:D

Life;

I know I’m not the most smartest person in the world. I know I make tons of mistakes. I know that my life isn’t as good as some. I know I’m not making the right kind of choices. I know that there is a big chance I will fail at alot more things and make more mistakes.

But I am trying to change. I am trying to make myself better. I am trying to be a better person then I was in the past. I am trying to make a good future for me and my kid.

Yes I’ve lost alot of friends. But I’m trying to make amends it just takes alot I know people can’t just forget the past and move on. And I know I’ve hurt alot of people. But that’s not what I intended on doing. I’m young and people can make me think things I have no control over. It’s hard when your the one raising yourself and you have no idea what to do. I know that is no excuse but the fact of the matter is I’m trying to learn and do better. I don’t want dumb and backstabbing friends around anymore. It’s just not worth the drama. I miss days when I was a kid. I had all sorts of good honest friends that I ended up mistreating and hurting. And I do regret it greatly.

Yes my family is not prefect but they try. My mom has done alot of growing herself. She doesn’t go out to the bar alot. She does homework with my brother everyday. Yes she maybe going to “The voice” Friday but if things work out she and my brother will be set for a good while. And that’s all I want for them. And hopefully she will take care of my grandparents cause lord knows they need help now that they are getting older.

My life is far from prefect and I know that. But I’m really trying to change things. I have alot of growing up to do before my child gets here. I want to be one of the moms that a child can look up to not one of the moms who goes out and gets drunk and dates about a million guys. I want to be there for them no matter what. Give him/her things I didn’t have growing up. Give them advice when needed. Cook home cooked meals every night. Take care of them when they are sick. Make sure they have a home they can grow up in. I’m trying to be a good mom. I’ve given up so much and I don’t mind it. Anything is worth it for my child’s safety.

Sleepy;

Doctors appt. at 12 in the afternoon. Getting a bunch of blood work done ugh.

But it’s all worth it for my baby(:

):

Sister and nephew are leaving tomorrow.

It sucks.

→ This is how I feel when:

someone likes my post:

someone reblogs my post:

get a bunch of new followers:

when i get a message:

and when a follower says i’m cute:

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So;

It always feels like my room is on fire. It’s so damn hot. I had to open both my windows and turn on 3 fans and leave me bedroom door open. Plus I’m hungry as heck. Bleh even though I ate not to long ago. This baby is a little piggy :3 but I love him/her.